“In journeyings often, in perils of waters, in perils of robbers, in perils by mine own countrymen, in perils by the heathen, in perils in the city, in perils in the wilderness, in perils in the sea, in perils among false brethren;” (2 Cor. 11:26)
As far as I can recall, though they may not all have been recorded for us, there was only one time that Paul asked the Lord to relieve his pain. He knew, because the Holy Spirit had told him, that he was not going to be able to preach in Asia, he knew because, the Lord had said to him that he would go to Rome, and that he would arrive safely. I offer you this verse today, “The just shall live by faith.” (Romans 1:17)
Paul heard the voice of God, we do not, Abraham, Moses and others heard His voice audibly, men and women have spoken to angels sent by the Most High, prophets were sent with the words of God after they heard the voice of God. We live by faith with no audible transactions, we live by faith.
The epitome of this is of course those who heard the Lord Jesus Christ speak, from those words along the path to the next town to the loud yell of, “Lazarus, come forth.” (John 11:43) Every man of God lives in a type of conflict in this area, those fervent prayers, those moments of deep contemplation, those times when we need to hear Him we think we do, in that still small voice in our mind that does not seem to be coming from us.
Unless you have experienced this, it is almost impossible to describe, and if you attempted to, to some you would be considered insane, to others simply delusional. We know the words we hear inside of us are not of us, but we cannot truly be sure, for we may want to hear what was said, and we are indeed fearfully and wonderfully made, yet also at times easily deceived. And these words from the Lord, are they no more than thoughts within us that are what we want to hear, or are they perhaps from our adversary attempting to deceive us?
The last one can be, I believe, dismissed at times, especially if we have not verbalized audibly anything, for although he is beyond brilliant in the ways of man, I do not personally believe that Satan or any who fell with him can read our minds, I do not believe that is within his power, though I have no Scriptural reference to back up this statement in any way.
There is one thing I can say with all assuredness though, all those who have been born-again have the Holy Spirit indwelling them, and He leads us and guides us on the path that has been set before us, what I cannot say in this age of grace is if He ever does so with that still small voice we seem to hear within our minds. An intuitiveness, a knowing of His will is always present within us, but even then we must employ 1 John 4:1, “Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world.” It would be foolish not to my friends, especially when no one has heard that voice save for you, many asylums are full of people who hear voices in their head.
I have no answers for you, at best you could do as Gideon did when he laid out the fleece twice, but that would be your decision. The just live by faith, faith has ears that hear differently than those on the side of your head, faith hears with the assuredness that it is God Himself speaking to you. His Word is where He speaks to us, but there is that calm reassurance, that peace that passes all understanding that all who are His children know.
As for that voice in your mind, I can give no answer, if it is indeed from the Lord, the Holy Spirit will reaffirm it, and that will be your proof.
