I can think of many other things that I would rather be doing as I walk down those steps to write these letters to you, and just as many things that I need to do. But as soon as my pen begins to flow across the page, I can think of nothing else that I would rather be doing.
“For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do.” (Romans 7:19)
It is not an impulse that draws me down here, it is no habit that I have formed, it is the Holy Spirit saying that He has something that He wants to tell me, and by His design and will, something for you to know as well.
And that may be one of the greatest reasons I can think of all those other things that I could be doing, because I in no way feel that He should be using me to do this.
Many times I have told Him that if these are truly letters of truth, that if there is wisdom being imparted in them for others, then He should find someone who has hundreds of thousands of views on their channel or website.
But if I’m going to be honest here, most that have many subscribers and viewers really do not seem to be those that are attempting to help people in how to apply the Scriptures in their day-to-day walk with the Lord. Many of them focus on the most current events that television and social media tells them is important, and then offer only a few moments to glorifying the Living God, or at best making suggestions of how a Christian is to apply God’s truth in their lives.
Wouldn’t want to possibly offend anyone, would we?
“For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.” (Heb. 4:12)
I have studied human nature almost the entirety of my life, not from textbooks or teachers, but by speaking to people. Many times, when I ask a question of someone, it is not to try to understand anything about them personally, but to understand instead how people think as a whole. And you might be surprised my friends how incredibly similar we all are, no matter our backgrounds, hopes, dreams or desires.
But contrary to what you may think of me, I am not a “people person,” I do not crave companionship, save for that of my lovely wife. Whenever I do initiate a conversation with a person though, it has one intended purpose, to find out where they are spiritually.
And so, I understand that opening verse in this letter to you quite well. The good I would do I do not, for I do not go out into the world seeking for the lost, but I never hesitate to start conversations with them. For me, that is easy, and for one reason. I really do not care what they think about me. Not in the least.
And that perhaps may be the evil I do.
If they want to listen and hear His truths, His love for them, fine. Wonderful. If they do not, fine. Their loss.
I speak truth, I speak bluntly and forthright, I pull no punches. I say, as they say, what I mean. And that is why I can think of a thousand other things I would rather be doing than writing these letters.
If you are not interested in hearing of how you are to die to self and live fully and completely to the will of God, if you are not interested in hearing correction and reproofs, even rebukes if it is necessary, then go instead to one of those other channels where they will tell you the latest news of the world, their opinions on it, politely ask you to consider serving Christ a little more, and then ask you to hit the Like button and subscribe.
You will not find that here.
