I have tired of them again, not tired of the Lord, not to a point of neglecting my duties in every area, but tired of those I attempt to bring the truths of the Scriptures to.
“And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.” (Gal. 6:9)
But we do grow weary at times, and I have, so for an unspecified amount of time, time that I will leave in the hands of the Holy Spirit, I am going to take a break. Not from producing the videos for the Borrowed Truths YouTube channel, nor from these letters to you, but from seeking the lost.
Whether they are the wicked who profess within themselves there is no God, those trapped in religious cults, works-based organizations who deny the shed blood of the Lord Jesus Christ as sufficient for the salvation of all that call upon Him, even those who attend to what are considered Evangelical ideologies, yet who refuse correction when shown what they believe is incorrect.
Once again, I am being taught the truth of John 15:19.
“If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you.”
Have I forsaken them? No, not at all, but at times we must do as our Savior did, go apart from the crowd, else the frustrations may overpower us.
“Then Jesus answered and said, O faithless and perverse generation, how long shall I be with you? how long shall I suffer you? bring him hither to me.” (Matt. 17:17)
I claim no great magnitude of His grace and knowledge, these letters do not receive hundreds of thousands of views, I do not have the, apparently, coveted YouTube plaque, nor do I desire it, people do not seek me out for wisdom, I am not asked to speak at large, or small, gatherings. But I know this and say so with no conceit or pride in my heart, I have been blessed with wisdom, Spiritual discernment, a heart that can discern between good and evil, and in relation to the Word of God, truth.
And I am tired of attempting to reveal these to those who refuse to accept them.
“And others had trial of cruel mockings and scourgings, yea, moreover of bonds and imprisonment:” (Heb. 11:36)
I have never wanted prove myself to be right.
“God forbid: yea, let God be true, but every man a liar; as it is written, That thou mightest be justified in thy sayings, and mightest overcome when thou art judged.” (Romans 3:4)
But when I know for a fact that the Holy Spirit has indeed revealed truth to me about the Scriptures, and I offer those truths to others who continuously deny them, offer their opinions instead of verses in context, use other resources to validate the lies they believe, or simply refuse to hear because they would rather be right in their own mind than accept the proof that they are wrong, I grow weary of them exceedingly. And so, I will apply Romans 12:18 in my life for a time.
“If it be possible, as much as lieth in you, live peaceably with all men.”
And for me, that would mean complete abstinence from them, before the possibility of offending arrives, and words pass my lips that cause my brother or sister to stumble.
We are sent out as sheep amongst the wolves looking for other sheep, searching for the lost amongst the wicked, and although I have no fear of the wicked, when their reproaches are added to, and magnified by, those who adhere to works-based for salvation cults, and those who are hid in Christ who refuse to accept correction when their interpretations of the Word of God is revealed to them, and it has gone on for a very long time in my life, I need to take a break from all of them.
They are accountable for themselves, and will be held accountable, I cannot make them hear, if they refuse truth, that is on them.
I will continue to seek the face of God, praying earnestly for His guidance, His mercy and truth, and once again realize that in His time and according to His will Jeremiah 20:9 will become a truth in my life.
“Then I said, I will not make mention of him, nor speak any more in his name. But his word was in mine heart as a burning fire shut up in my bones, and I was weary with forbearing, and I could not stay.”
